I wish I could go back in time and take back every little brag I ever made about my little monster sleeping all night! Karma is most definitely paying me a visit of late, with my son waking up SCREAMING at the stupidest of hours... Taking forever to settle... Then starting all over again when I leave the room! It's all so very trying... Don't get me wrong, love him to bits... Just wish his cry didn't send me into a fit of rage in my grumpy half asleep state.
Some say it's the PND... That I was stupid for going cold turkey off the anti-depressants... Meh, I dislike feeling like drugs are ruling my life! People got by without them many years ago, why should now be any different!? Just because they're around, doesn't mean they should be abused and taken at the first sign of life getting tough. But at the same time.... Deep down I know that I need them... I think that's the worst part. DENIAL. Such a bitch of a thing. Ughhhh.
Others say it's the fact I feel so useless. I admire mothers that can stay home for YEARS raising their children, keeping house, playing wife... Really, I do. I would love to feel like I can do that! But I'm just not that person. I'm independent. I need to feel needed. Like I'm making a difference in this world... Gah, now I feel like a bad mum! I love raising my froggeh! I really do hope he turns out to be a seriously awesome little man! I just hope I can manage to turn myself into a seriously awesome woman as well!
Gah, now I feel like a bad mum! I'm not a bad person. I put my son before EVERYONE. Everything I've done in the last 2 years has been for him. Except for the move to Perth. That was for both of us. He'll enjoy the laidback lifestyle, I'll enjoy the fresh start! (hopefully!)
At least I get to do a lot of thinking at 2am.... Ponder what my life will be like in 5 years time... 10 years... 15... What froggeh will be like as an adolescent... adult... old man... LOL. Then I can never get to sleep. Such a vicious cycle!
Then I go back to trying to get a job.. And cleaning.. FML, I'm so over cleaning!!!! Especially when 10 minutes later, the little turd is pulling it all out of the bin anyway!! >.<
Ooooh, this ones a little deep hey!? I'm not a bad person! I'm just frustrated, confused, and experiencing a quarter life crisis! I'll sort myself out one day. Preferably before it's too late.
Peace out kidlets! x
18 February, 2011
14 February, 2011
Valentines Day...
Roses are gay
Violets are dead
I'll spend the whole day
Laying in bed!
...LOL. I dislike Valentines Day when I have nobody to stimulate me. Not in a dirty sex kinda way; in an adult conversation kinda way. One that doesn't involve poo's, toys, and tanties!
Don't get me wrong, sex would be awesome! But it's not really top of my list!
I also hate bills. And want more nappies. And want a million other things as well! ...Sucks to WANT everything!!! I WANT never gets!!!!
I do NEED a job though. Would most definitely help me satisfy my 'wants' LOL.
Ugh, bored ramblings yet again.
Peace out kidlets! x
Violets are dead
I'll spend the whole day
Laying in bed!
...LOL. I dislike Valentines Day when I have nobody to stimulate me. Not in a dirty sex kinda way; in an adult conversation kinda way. One that doesn't involve poo's, toys, and tanties!
Don't get me wrong, sex would be awesome! But it's not really top of my list!
I also hate bills. And want more nappies. And want a million other things as well! ...Sucks to WANT everything!!! I WANT never gets!!!!
I do NEED a job though. Would most definitely help me satisfy my 'wants' LOL.
Ugh, bored ramblings yet again.
Peace out kidlets! x
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12 February, 2011
Sprinklers...
Gah, they're so frustrating!! When I first got here, the first thing I noticed was that the bit of grass between the hwy was getting watered!! Don't think I've ever seen that in my life! Naturally, this made me think Perth was the coolest place ever, LOL.
But now... Now I know the truth about the evil sprinklers. They never do what they're told! Go off when they want (at least on the right day!) and squirt for AGES! So much for 20 minutes max - sorry almost empty Perth dam, our sprinklers are greedy and stay on for an hour or so... >.<
Other than that, life here is pretty awesome! Finally get my bed tomorrow - only took 3 weeks! Also get my pallets of crap!!! This is exciting. Almost as exciting as when Sparkles (my car) arrived! Not really looking forward to putting my bed together though. Can totally see this ending badly!
Oh.. Yes.. I've been here 3 weeks!? CRAZY. Where is the time going!? Also getting homesick I think.... Starting to get bored as I get more settled in... Need to find a job, but it's no easy task when you have a kid to look after as well - discriminating bastards! Plus, the fact I only really have Hospitality experience doesn't really help me, considering I'm trying to get an office job. *sigh* One day...
Anyway, felt a little overdue on the blog front.. Now it's out of my system, I feel much better! Will probably get back into it a little more when I have REAL internet on my PC ahaha. Stupid USB internet stuff is GAY. Drops out wayyy too much! :(
Peace out kidlets! x
But now... Now I know the truth about the evil sprinklers. They never do what they're told! Go off when they want (at least on the right day!) and squirt for AGES! So much for 20 minutes max - sorry almost empty Perth dam, our sprinklers are greedy and stay on for an hour or so... >.<
Other than that, life here is pretty awesome! Finally get my bed tomorrow - only took 3 weeks! Also get my pallets of crap!!! This is exciting. Almost as exciting as when Sparkles (my car) arrived! Not really looking forward to putting my bed together though. Can totally see this ending badly!
Oh.. Yes.. I've been here 3 weeks!? CRAZY. Where is the time going!? Also getting homesick I think.... Starting to get bored as I get more settled in... Need to find a job, but it's no easy task when you have a kid to look after as well - discriminating bastards! Plus, the fact I only really have Hospitality experience doesn't really help me, considering I'm trying to get an office job. *sigh* One day...
Anyway, felt a little overdue on the blog front.. Now it's out of my system, I feel much better! Will probably get back into it a little more when I have REAL internet on my PC ahaha. Stupid USB internet stuff is GAY. Drops out wayyy too much! :(
Peace out kidlets! x
24 January, 2011
HELLO Perth!
So I'm here!! Got here Thursday night and it still hasn't really sunk in that I've actually moved here! Figure it will hit me like a tonne of bricks one day when I least expect it! >.<
We adjusted well to the time difference etc. The Melbourne like weather is making that a little easier though! Wouldn't complain if this rain went away though... STOP FOLLOWING ME!! ...damn rain clouds! My little man is doing heaps better than expected, but is being hell clingy and clumsy, so I'm thinking his ears popped during the flight - poor kid!
Speaking of flight.... You know how when you fly somewhere, there's always that ONE child that sooks the WHOOOOOOLLLLEEEEEEEEEEEE flight!? Well.... I have that child! Must be karma for all the evil glares I used to give kids pre-mummy LOL. Sucked sooo bad!! Late flights and toddlers clearly don't mix. EVER.
Adelaide was crap. The CBD strongly resembles an outer Melbourne suburb LOL. Everyone drives slow and crazy-like. Rundle mall is NOT what it's cracked up to be!! Tad disappointing. The drive into Adelaide was fun though!!
By the way.... To anyone thinking about coming to Perth - COMMUTE! Perth drivers are SOOOO bad LOL. Like, CRAZY bad. Horrible even.
The weather is amazing though. Completely different to Melbourne! It can be hot, yet there's still a refreshing breeze in the air! ...But then again, I do believe I haven't copped a scorcher yet!
Anyway, just thought I'd give you all an update on everything! I do like it here so far! Going to get out and explore a little more tomorrow hopefully...
Anywayyy... Time for this granny to sleep! Moving is so exhausting!!
Peace out kidlets! x
We adjusted well to the time difference etc. The Melbourne like weather is making that a little easier though! Wouldn't complain if this rain went away though... STOP FOLLOWING ME!! ...damn rain clouds! My little man is doing heaps better than expected, but is being hell clingy and clumsy, so I'm thinking his ears popped during the flight - poor kid!
Speaking of flight.... You know how when you fly somewhere, there's always that ONE child that sooks the WHOOOOOOLLLLEEEEEEEEEEEE flight!? Well.... I have that child! Must be karma for all the evil glares I used to give kids pre-mummy LOL. Sucked sooo bad!! Late flights and toddlers clearly don't mix. EVER.
Adelaide was crap. The CBD strongly resembles an outer Melbourne suburb LOL. Everyone drives slow and crazy-like. Rundle mall is NOT what it's cracked up to be!! Tad disappointing. The drive into Adelaide was fun though!!
By the way.... To anyone thinking about coming to Perth - COMMUTE! Perth drivers are SOOOO bad LOL. Like, CRAZY bad. Horrible even.
The weather is amazing though. Completely different to Melbourne! It can be hot, yet there's still a refreshing breeze in the air! ...But then again, I do believe I haven't copped a scorcher yet!
Anyway, just thought I'd give you all an update on everything! I do like it here so far! Going to get out and explore a little more tomorrow hopefully...
Anywayyy... Time for this granny to sleep! Moving is so exhausting!!
Peace out kidlets! x
15 January, 2011
Last night...
So tonight is my last night in 'our' first home. Hasn't really gotten to me, knowing I was leaving this place.. Until just then. I realised all the milestones froggy has reached in this house! First word, first tooth, crawling, first steps.... The laughter, the tears, the frustration, sleepless nights, happy moments, tickles, cuddles..... And now I'm getting sad. Don't get me wrong, I'll be glad to see the back of this place! It has no aircon, thus making it sauna spec on hot days. But it was our first home. Not house, home. There's a huge difference, as some of you will know. Ahh well, I'll just keep reminding myself of the reasons why I'm leaving - the new memories, laughter, milestones and tears... A new life.
Speaking of new life - how awesome am I!? First house = brand spanking new! Had to wait for the electrical stuff to be done before I could even move in..... New house in Perth = brand spanking new as well!!! God help me the day I have to move into an older house LOL.
Should probably go clean some more... Still have sooo much to do! Took a breather to nab a WW custom, and that was an hour ago.... WHOOPSIES.
Seriously cant believe it's my last night here.... I need booze!! This time in 3 days I'll be going to bed for the last time as a Melbournian!!! EEEEEEEEEEP.
Peeeeeeeeeace out kidlets! x
Speaking of new life - how awesome am I!? First house = brand spanking new! Had to wait for the electrical stuff to be done before I could even move in..... New house in Perth = brand spanking new as well!!! God help me the day I have to move into an older house LOL.
Should probably go clean some more... Still have sooo much to do! Took a breather to nab a WW custom, and that was an hour ago.... WHOOPSIES.
Seriously cant believe it's my last night here.... I need booze!! This time in 3 days I'll be going to bed for the last time as a Melbournian!!! EEEEEEEEEEP.
Peeeeeeeeeace out kidlets! x
13 January, 2011
OMIGAWD...
This time in SEVEN days, I'll be snoozing in my fabulous hotel room in Adelaide!!!!!!! WEEEEEE! Curious to see what Adelaide is like - never been there before!!
ANNNND.... This time in 8 days, i'll be on the plane on my way to Perth!!!! (with less than an hour to go!) THAT is exciting!!!! Also nerve racking. Hopefully my little froggy takes after his mama and loves flying!
Packing is shit. Seriously! SOOOOOO SHIT. I think the fact that you pack, only to unpack a couple of days later makes it so much more suckier, if that makes sense!? Hmmmm.. Almost done. Not sure if everything I plan on putting in my car will actually fit in my car though. I have more crap than I thought!
...How's the floods in Brisbane!? SOOOO depressing! I watch the news, read the stuff on facebook, browse some blogs.... And my heart breaks. Seeing pics of places like Southbank... Thinking... Places I used to sit and watch the world go by are now underwater! CRAZY. Friends houses - underwater. I feel like my heart is being ripped away with the current, it's that brutal. The stories of heroism and random acts of kindness make my heart smile though! And the flood relief... OH. EM. GEEE! Can't believe how generous our amazing little country (well, continent if you want to get technical) is! No wonder I love Australia so much! <3
My little man has started 'hiding' on me hey. It's the cutest thing ever, as he hasn't quite grasped the concept of 'hiding' yet! He merely squats in the corner!! He looks so cute though! Tucks his little head down and tries sooo hard not to move/make a sound! Then he sees my feet, jumps up, goes "didididididdididididdididi" (no idea what that is meant to mean LOL) and runs away! DAMMIT. How can one child be so damn lovable!? I just want to squish him!! >.<
He does wees on the toilet too!! I put a pic up for you all to enjoy. Makes me do a little squeal on the inside seeing him on the toilet! ...Yes, I think it's THAT cute!
God, I always swore I'd never be one of those mums that talks about their kids ALLLLLLLLLLLL the time.. Used to drive me batty! Yet here I am, basking in my sons glory and amazement. Funny how the world works hey!?
Don't you hate it when you can't sleep!? Another night of cleaning done... Melbourne's humidity is draining the life out of me! I can't clean during the day as I feel too sticky to do anything, so I do it all at night when the house has cooled down... Naturally, that results in my body gaining another hit of energy, thus leaving me wide eyed and bushy tailed at ...12:25am. Sweet, this is awesome!! *note sarcasm*
Ughh, might go amuse myself elsewhere now...
Much love kidlets! x
ANNNND.... This time in 8 days, i'll be on the plane on my way to Perth!!!! (with less than an hour to go!) THAT is exciting!!!! Also nerve racking. Hopefully my little froggy takes after his mama and loves flying!
Packing is shit. Seriously! SOOOOOO SHIT. I think the fact that you pack, only to unpack a couple of days later makes it so much more suckier, if that makes sense!? Hmmmm.. Almost done. Not sure if everything I plan on putting in my car will actually fit in my car though. I have more crap than I thought!
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| This is all MY crap... EEEEP! |
...How's the floods in Brisbane!? SOOOO depressing! I watch the news, read the stuff on facebook, browse some blogs.... And my heart breaks. Seeing pics of places like Southbank... Thinking... Places I used to sit and watch the world go by are now underwater! CRAZY. Friends houses - underwater. I feel like my heart is being ripped away with the current, it's that brutal. The stories of heroism and random acts of kindness make my heart smile though! And the flood relief... OH. EM. GEEE! Can't believe how generous our amazing little country (well, continent if you want to get technical) is! No wonder I love Australia so much! <3
My little man has started 'hiding' on me hey. It's the cutest thing ever, as he hasn't quite grasped the concept of 'hiding' yet! He merely squats in the corner!! He looks so cute though! Tucks his little head down and tries sooo hard not to move/make a sound! Then he sees my feet, jumps up, goes "didididididdididididdididi" (no idea what that is meant to mean LOL) and runs away! DAMMIT. How can one child be so damn lovable!? I just want to squish him!! >.<
He does wees on the toilet too!! I put a pic up for you all to enjoy. Makes me do a little squeal on the inside seeing him on the toilet! ...Yes, I think it's THAT cute!
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| How cute is my little man!? LOVE HIM. |
God, I always swore I'd never be one of those mums that talks about their kids ALLLLLLLLLLLL the time.. Used to drive me batty! Yet here I am, basking in my sons glory and amazement. Funny how the world works hey!?
Don't you hate it when you can't sleep!? Another night of cleaning done... Melbourne's humidity is draining the life out of me! I can't clean during the day as I feel too sticky to do anything, so I do it all at night when the house has cooled down... Naturally, that results in my body gaining another hit of energy, thus leaving me wide eyed and bushy tailed at ...12:25am. Sweet, this is awesome!! *note sarcasm*
Ughh, might go amuse myself elsewhere now...
Much love kidlets! x
09 January, 2011
Face vs Tiles...
And the tiles won!! I know I look like crap - I'd been dancing in the rain, and consumed a LOT of ouzo! LOL.
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